The Hunger Games

Por qué no empecé a leer la saga de The Hunger Games antes es una pregunta que jamás me voy a poder responder. Pero bueno, más vale tarde que nunca, no?

Si, empecé a leer el primer libro ayer a la noche y no pude parar desde entonces.

Si, no puedo esperar a ver la película este mismo fin de semana.

Si, estoy completa y estupidizadamente (existe esa palabra siquiera?) enamorada de Peeta Mellark.

And then I woke up.

Ayer soñé que estaba en un show, y que yo presentaba algo en ese show. No me acuerdo si cantaba o si actuaba or whatever, la cosa es que, cuando ya había terminado todo, alguien me dice que Julian Casablancas había estado viendo todo o que The Strokes había tocado en el show, una de otra. Cuestión que corrí como una desaforada detrás de escena a buscarlo, y lo encontré. Y me dio un abrazo y me dijo que era fan mío (?), y entonces yo, totalmente anonadada le exigí una prueba de todo esto, y me escribió todo en uno de los programas del show, todo con letras divertidas. Y me desperté. Al pedo le pedí todo, porque era todo un sueño.

Llegué a las 150 entradas.

Empezó el otoño.

En menos de cuatro semanas me voy a NYC.

Winter Wishlist.

y... se viene el invierno y hace falta alguien con quien compartirlo, no?

enchanted.

This is me praying that:

this was the very first page,

not where the storyline ends.

My thoughts will echo your name

until I see you again.

These are the words I held back

as I was leaving too soon:

I was enchanted to meet you.

TAYLOR SWIFT - ENCHANTED

My Neighbor Totoro

esta película me puede tanto, pero tanto tanto.

Oráculo.

That awkward creepy awesome moment when your horoscope starts to describe your exact situation and ends up giving you the best advice about what you should do next in order to succeed.

I mean, it basically told me what any normal person would have advised me to do, but when it comes from a source that can randomly talk about anything, and it so happens to land on what you're living right now, it's the voice of reason.
And I'm bound to follow its advice as if it was matter of life or death. Because it just proved right everyone that told me to do exactly that.
And what is it I must do? Nothing. Apparently, I've already done enough, now it's their turn to do something. The thing is, waiting fucking sucks. The uncertainty of not knowing if the other person will ever make a move is just eating me up inside.



I hate to wait for something that I can't control.

I hate your mixed signals.

I hate the fact that it's your turn to play.

I hate to wait for you to play.

I hate this game. (No, you don't. Right, I don't.)

I hate that deep down I know I don't hate this game.

I don't hate any of this actually.

I'm just upset.

So I'm counting on you then, horoscope.

You better not fuck this up.

Pretty please?

Good times for a change.

See, the luck I've had

can make a good man

turn bad.

So please, please, please

let me, let me, let me,

let me get what I want

this time.

Haven't had a dream in a long time;

see, the life I've had

can make a good man bad.

So for once in my life

let me get what I want.

Lord knows, it would be the first time.

Lord knows, it would be the first time.

THE SMITHS - PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE LET ME GET WHAT I WANT

Sometimes I wish I had a time machine.

Se puede repetir la semana pasada toda otra vez, por favor?



m a r z o

Loco, no pasaron ni cinco días y ya me estás demostrando lo bueno que va a estar este año.

No sé cómo vas a hacer para seguir sorprendiéndome tanto como hiciste en estos pocos días, Marzo.

Nada de cortarme ahora toda esta buena onda; que siga así, que siga así.

La racha va a seguir, esto es sólo el principio.

Juegos del Destino

Qué lindo que es cuando el destino juega a tu favor.
Y más todavía cuando no te la esperás.
Igual es típico que las cosas que querés que pasen

pasen así,

de sorpresa.

Entonces si al otro día todo tu mundo se viene abajo

todavía te queda algo que te haga sonreír.

♥

50

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? Pipe.

2. Are you loud, outgoing or shy? Sometimes I really can be a little bit of all those three, but most of the times I'm just loud, like literally (and outgoing).

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? Two old friends.

4. Are you easy to get along with? I guess so... I mean, unless you're an attention-seeking whore, or a fake, or just annoying, I get along with pretty much everyone.

5. Have you ever given up on someone, but then gone back to him or her? Yes, plenty of times, and I've also been disappointed right after I'd given them a second chance.

6. If you were drunk, would the person you like take care of you? I don't "like" anyone right now, at least not in that way, so I wouldn't know.

7. Do you think you'll be in a relationship two months from now? I don't know, I don't think I'll be in a formal relationship, but I'm totally open to date someone.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? Like I said before, no one right now.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? No, not at all.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? My best friend.

11. What does your most recent text say? "Connect the cuts, connect the cuts."

12. How do you feel about abortion? I don't think it should be all-the-way legalized; I mean, it should only be used for special cases, like rapes, for example.

13. Do you like big crowds of people? No.

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? Yes.

15. What good thing happened this summer? I had plenty of time to figure out more stuff about me.

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Ew, no.

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? I don't know.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? I still talk to my first real crush, not to the first crush I've ever had.

19. Do you like bubble baths? I guess so.

20. Do you like your neighbors? I don't actually know them, so I don't really know what to answer.

21. What are your bad habits? I'm extremely lazy, I never do the dishes, I forget the things I have to do (this list could go on forever, so I'm going to stop it right here).

22. Where would you like to travel? New York City (and I'm going to do so in April!)

23. Do you have trust issues? Yes, my trust issue is that I have none, and that can be quite a problem sometimes.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Not actually having a daily routine.

25. What body part are you most uncomfortable with? My left boob is bigger that the right one, and it sucks.

26. What do you do when you wake up? Try to go back to sleep again.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? Definitely darker, a ghost is darker than me.

28. Who are you most comfortable around? My friends and family.

29. Have any of your ex's told you they regret breaking up? I don't have any ex's at all, so...

30. Do you ever want to get married? I think so.

31. Is your hair long enough for a ponytail? Hell yeah it is.

32. Which celebrities would you like having a threesome with? Darren Chris and Joseph Gordon-Levitt.

33. Spell your name with your chin. agbex

34. Do you play sports? Not right now, but I used to. I had to drop out because this year I'm starting dance lessons.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV, I couldn't live without music.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Yes.

37. What do you say during awkward silences? Nothing. That's why they're called "silences".

38. Do you think age matters in relationships? It depends.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? Complot is my favorite store.

40. What do you want to do after high school? I've already finished high school, and I'm studying Dramatic Arts.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? No, I don't believe that anymore.

42. If you're being extremely quiet, what does it mean? Either that I'm in a bad mood or that I really have nothing to say.

43. Do you smile at strangers? Sometimes.

44. Trip to outter space of bottom of the ocean? Both freak the hell out of me, but I think I'd rather have a trip to outter space.

45. Do you want a roomate? I already have one, my younger sister.

46. What are you paranoid about? Right now? I guess death paranoys me a bit.

47. What was the meanest thing someone ever said to you? I don't remember, I try to forget that kind of things.

48. The nicest thing? That I really am a good person.

49. Have you done something recently you hope no one find out about? Not really.

50. What language do you want to learn? I think french would be interesting.

en el limbo

A veces está bueno desconectarse un poco de la gente que ves todos los días.
Es en ese vacío que te das cuenta si de verdad te importan tanto como parece

o si les importás tanto a ellos como creés.

Puede que las cosas si sean como las ves en la rutina.

o puede que no.

son-risas

Quiero creer que este año la vida me va a sonreír de verdad.
Una de esas sonrisas de las que muestran todos los dientes; los de arriba y los de abajo.
De las que van de oreja a oreja.

Dale que vamos bien así.

and isn't it ironic?

La persona que pensás que es perfecta para vos no te da ni la hora.

Y a la que si, vos no querés verla ni en figuritas.

Qué hay que hacer? Seguirsela al que no te gusta sólo para dar vuelta el karma de "por no darle bola al que te quiere, el que vos querés no te va a dar bola a vos"? Mandar todo a la mierda?

Es como una duda existencial que tengo.

menos charla y más colores.

fuck yeah

maybe today wasn't my day
maybe last week wasn't my week
maybe this month won't be my month


but it's gonna be my year.

Casi Normales

I don't need a life that's normal,

that's way too far away.

But something next to normal

would be okay;

yeah, something next to normal,

that's the thing I'd like to try.

Close enough to normal

to get by.

MAYBE (NEXT TO NORMAL) - NEXT TO NORMAL

Un viernes 13

que definitivamente

no le hizo fama

a su reputación.

forget shit and move on

Y al final sos la persona que más fácil me resultó olvidar.

hola, twenty twelve

Hola, fin del mundo.
Hola, "este año llego flaca al próximo verano".
Hola, "este año me pongo de novia".
Hola, gente nueva.
Hola, gente vieja.
Hola, cambios.
Hola, nuevas experiencias.
Hola, nuevos desafíos.
Hola, alegría.
Hola, lo que sea que tenga que ser.


Hola, 2012, te estaba esperando.

Balance del año 101

No voy a ir repasando lo que me pasó en el año, no voy a ponerme a analizar a fondo lo que hice o deje de hacer este año, no voy a ponerme nostálgica recordando lo que gané y lo que perdí; sólo quiero darle un cierre al 2011. Y para eso, encontré un párrafo que describe casi a la perfección lo que significaron para mí estos últimos 365 días.

2011 is the year that went by so fast, maybe a little too fast. It's the year your so called friend walks out of your life, and it's the year you realize who the real ones are. It's the year you felt the most pressure to the point where you gave up so many times but you're still learning how to get back up. It's the year you said you were going to accomplish great things yet you felt like you just wasted time. It's the year you cried over too many pointless things, too many times. It's the year you look back on all the lifetime memories in which you find yourself missing the people in them. But it's also the year you move on, slowly, and you realize that what you're doing is okay. (staypositive)

Bueno, más o menos fue eso. Y mi mayor reflexión de este año es que ahora me toca ocuparme un poco más de mí misma, y no del resto; ya di demasiado, ahora es mi turno de recibir, y sé que el 2012 me espera con muchas cosas buenas. Así que, feliz año nuevo, y a sonreír y a disfrutar se ha dicho!

merry christmas

una muy feliz navidad a cualquiera que lea esto y... si, creo que a vos también. feliz navidad.

Blame it on the alcohol.

After a long weekend filled with mistakes - well, maybe there weren't that many mistakes... okay, there were only two major screw-ups, but they were so huge they labelled the weekend as one of those you don't regret, but clearly don't want to remember or repeat ever again. I know that bad decisions make good stories, but what happens when you go too far? When things all of a sudden get real, and you realize you both ain't kidding any more? It sucks, that's what happens. One slight movement, and everything changed. And the thing was that by that moment, I was in too deep; no matter how hard the moral part of my brain tried to stop me, the rest of my mind was so fucked up I couldn't even speak.

For one bare moment I was scared to death that I might have destroyed the single one friendship I hadn't messed up with yet. But I didn't, because it wasn't entirely my fault; we both were guilty for what was happening. I'm just glad we both knew that we could blame it on how drunk we were and leave the whole thing there.

And when it comes to the other one... well, let's just say that getting drunk while holding a grudge at someone who can't seem to make up his mind, isn't the smartest of things to do, especially when you end up with a person that clearly doesn't know what a one night stand means.

So anyway, I guess this is one of those things that right now make you want to disappear from this Earth, but that, eventually, you end up laughing about. Or at least I hope so!

Miremos el vaso medio lleno

A ver si nos ponemos todos un poco las pilas y nos dejamos de joder con la mala onda, dale?

Cada vez me doy más cuenta de lo poco que la gente valora lo que tiene o lo que consigue con su trabajo; todo siempre tiene que ser una puta competencia. Querés más que lo que tiene el otro, o no entendés porque al otro le dan más que a vos. Viví y deja vivir.

Es cuando te dejás sorprender que pasan las mejores cosas; si esperás demasiado, lo más probable es que te terminen decepcionando, o que te dejen con ganas de "algo más". Y quizás ese "algo más" si te lo dieron, pero de tanto estar esperando todo, no lo ves y lo dejás pasar.

Nunca nada es suficiente, nada.

                                   Qué va a pasar cuándo ya no haya más para dar?

more than us

take me by surprise again
sweep me off my feet one more time
dare me to a staring contest
                                 and let me win.

be everything I've ever wanted
or just please
don't let me go
don't let me let go
don't let us go.