Balance del año 101

No voy a ir repasando lo que me pasó en el año, no voy a ponerme a analizar a fondo lo que hice o deje de hacer este año, no voy a ponerme nostálgica recordando lo que gané y lo que perdí; sólo quiero darle un cierre al 2011. Y para eso, encontré un párrafo que describe casi a la perfección lo que significaron para mí estos últimos 365 días.

2011 is the year that went by so fast, maybe a little too fast. It's the year your so called friend walks out of your life, and it's the year you realize who the real ones are. It's the year you felt the most pressure to the point where you gave up so many times but you're still learning how to get back up. It's the year you said you were going to accomplish great things yet you felt like you just wasted time. It's the year you cried over too many pointless things, too many times. It's the year you look back on all the lifetime memories in which you find yourself missing the people in them. But it's also the year you move on, slowly, and you realize that what you're doing is okay. (staypositive)

Bueno, más o menos fue eso. Y mi mayor reflexión de este año es que ahora me toca ocuparme un poco más de mí misma, y no del resto; ya di demasiado, ahora es mi turno de recibir, y sé que el 2012 me espera con muchas cosas buenas. Así que, feliz año nuevo, y a sonreír y a disfrutar se ha dicho!


merry christmas

una muy feliz navidad a cualquiera que lea esto y... si, creo que a vos también. feliz navidad.


Blame it on the alcohol.

After a long weekend filled with mistakes - well, maybe there weren't that many mistakes... okay, there were only two major screw-ups, but they were so huge they labelled the weekend as one of those you don't regret, but clearly don't want to remember or repeat ever again. I know that bad decisions make good stories, but what happens when you go too far? When things all of a sudden get real, and you realize you both ain't kidding any more? It sucks, that's what happens. One slight movement, and everything changed. And the thing was that by that moment, I was in too deep; no matter how hard the moral part of my brain tried to stop me, the rest of my mind was so fucked up I couldn't even speak.
For one bare moment I was scared to death that I might have destroyed the single one friendship I hadn't messed up with yet. But I didn't, because it wasn't entirely my fault; we both were guilty for what was happening. I'm just glad we both knew that we could blame it on how drunk we were and leave the whole thing there.
And when it comes to the other one... well, let's just say that getting drunk while holding a grudge at someone who can't seem to make up his mind, isn't the smartest of things to do, especially when you end up with a person that clearly doesn't know what a one night stand means.
So anyway, I guess this is one of those things that right now make you want to disappear from this Earth, but that, eventually, you end up laughing about. Or at least I hope so!


Miremos el vaso medio lleno

A ver si nos ponemos todos un poco las pilas y nos dejamos de joder con la mala onda, dale?
Cada vez me doy más cuenta de lo poco que la gente valora lo que tiene o lo que consigue con su trabajo; todo siempre tiene que ser una puta competencia. Querés más que lo que tiene el otro, o no entendés porque al otro le dan más que a vos. Viví y deja vivir.
Es cuando te dejás sorprender que pasan las mejores cosas; si esperás demasiado, lo más probable es que te terminen decepcionando, o que te dejen con ganas de "algo más". Y quizás ese "algo más" si te lo dieron, pero de tanto estar esperando todo, no lo ves y lo dejás pasar.

Nunca nada es suficiente, nada.
                                   Qué va a pasar cuándo ya no haya más para dar?


more than us

take me by surprise again
sweep me off my feet one more time
dare me to a staring contest
                                 and let me win.

be everything I've ever wanted
or just please
don't let me go
don't let me let go
don't let us go.