3.9.12

días traumáticos.


Justo el día en que reflexionando en el bondi pienso: bueh, al final, no son taaaaan dramáticos mis problemas; a ver si nos dejamos de exagerar un poco y nos bancamos que la vida no es siempre color de rosa, dale?
Para qué, a las horas ya empezaron a aparecer problemas de la vida real, no de los del tipo superficial que forman parte de mi dramatismo. Y se sintió como una bofetada en el medio de la cara.




Y vos aún así me quisiste escuchar, y eso ya me da ganas de querer ver como todo se va a resolver pronto.
Y me pone feliz que te hayas cruzado en mi camino.
Y sólo espero que sigas caminando conmigo

aunque sea por un rato más.
Y no me molesta si me acompañás como un amigo, o si simplemente estás al lado mío. Tan sólo quiero que te quedes. Que por primera vez alguien se quiera quedar conmigo, loca, exagerada y dramática como soy.

24.7.12

Patético lo mío.

Es oficial: me volví una workaholic.

18.7.12

I was bored so I did this.

o1tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
He's the sweetest person there is in my life right now. He's a true gentleman, cute, and above all that he makes me laugh and smile nonstop. And I love the fact that he's not the kind of guy girls normally have a crush on.
o2what on your body is hurting or bothering you?
My back. I need a massage ASAP.
o3what was your last thought before going to bed last night?
"I wonder how he's doing back home..."
o4what are you listening to?
Butterflies & Hurricanes (Muse)
o5what's something you're not looking forward to?
I don't know.
o6where do you think your best friend is right now?
Sleeping in her bed for sure.
o7have you kissed anybody in the last five days?
Nope.
o8sex on the first date?
I'd rather not.
o9kiss on the first date?
Yes.
1ois there one person you want to be with right now?
Of course there is.
11are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
Yes, I seriously am.
12is there something you would like to say to someone?
"I really, really like you. Please say you really, really like me back".
13what are three things you did today?
Stayed in bed. Went to my Musical Theater Class (and did nothing, that was a blast). Blogged and tweeted.
14would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
Have them over.
15what is your favorite kind of gum?
Mint flavored.
16are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/girlfriends?
No. (I mean, I've never had an official ex, so...)
17what is on your wrists right now?
Nothing.
18ever liked someone you thought you didn't stand a chance with?
Yes.
19does anyone have strong feelings for you?
I hope so!
2oare you slowly drifting away from someone?
I guess so, though I constantly get that feeling about a different person.
21have you ever wasted your time on someone?
Countless times.
22can you do the alphabet in sign language?
No.
23how have you felt today?
Gray. Sad. Tired. 
24you receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
Books and CD's.
25what is wrong with you right now?
I feel lonely.
26is there anyone you're really disappointed in?
Yes.
27would you rather have Starbucks or Jamba Juice right now?
A hot Starbucks.
28why aren't you in "love" with your last ex anymore?
(not an official ex, just for the record) Because he's an idiot.
29how late did you stay up last night and why?
I think I stayed up until 3am.
3owhen was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
A few hours ago.
31what were you doing an hour ago?
Blogging.
32what are you looking forward to in the next month?
I'm looking forward to starting my college's next semester.
33are you wearing jeans right now?
Yes.
34are you a patient person?
Sometimes, but not really.
35do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
Yes.
36favorite color?
Blue.
37did you have a dream last night?
Yes, I had more than one, in fact.
38are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
I said I was wearing jeans!
39if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?
Him, obviously.
4odo you love anyone who is not related to you?
Yes.
41if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
YES.
42do you like meeting new people?
Yes.
43are you afraid of falling in love?
No, although it sucks to get hurt.
44ever liked someone older than you?
Yes.
45has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
Yes.
46have you ever felt like you weren't good enough?
Countless times.

17.7.12

Let's be awkward together





Falling for someone is the most wonderful, yet the scariest feeling in the world. When you're not sure where life will lead but it's too much of an exciting adventure for you to care. When just the sight of someone gives you butterflies; when hearing them say your name gives you a warm fuzzy feeling running through your body. You get all these odd little feelings, and you're happy. But there's a little niggling feeling when you're apart that tries to discourage you. But then you see the other person again, and everything is better, everything is perfect.

9.7.12

Mariposas.








i was told there would be butterflies.
or maybe i just assumed it. i don't actually remember talking
about butterflies. but then again, i don't remember much.
i do remember the way the atmosphere cracked
under the pressure of your glance.
we always destroyed the air between us.
maybe we're the real cause
of all those holes in the ozone layer.
i wouldn't be surprised.



i was told there would be butterflies.
and instead i found global warming


(ap)

1.7.12

El final de la rutina.


Tengo que admitir que me estaba empezando a divertir el hecho de sincronizar mi día para estar cruzando el puente exactamente a las 13.55 todos los lunes y miércoles. Y verlo. E imaginarme historias y ver esos escenarios recrearse como una película en mi mente. A veces tenían un final feliz. Otras veces no. Y cada lunes y miércoles esperar a volver a cruzarme con su mirada como ese primer lunes que lo vi mirándome, y estaba sonriendo. Me aguanté la risa y me hice la estúpida hasta que el colectivo arrancó, y apenas me aseguré de que ya estaba lo suficientemente lejos, estallé. Pensé que todo había sido una gran casualidad, hasta que volví a verlo el miércoles, el lunes siguiente, y así fue por varias semanas. Me acuerdo ese miércoles que estaba completamente deprimida, y el simple hecho de verlo me devolvió la sonrisa, aunque sea por un rato. Pero ya no lo vi más. Creo que voy a tener que contentarme con la música que sale por mis auriculares o aprovechar de nuevo esas magníficas siestas de media hora que tanto me gustaban.

Y nuestras miradas nunca volvieron a encontrarse como aquella vez.

4.6.12

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

En el viaje de vuelta a Buenos Aires, empecé y terminé de leer The Perks of Being a Wallflower (Las Ventajas De Ser Un Marginado es el título en castellano, aunque les recomiendo, a los que puedan y quieran, que lo lean en su idioma original) de Stephen Chbosky. Me atrapó tanto que no podía dejar de leerlo, en serio. Y como justo ayer estrenaron el trailer oficial de la película en los MTV Movie Awards, creo que ya era hora de decir lo que me pareció este librito tan particular.
No voy a hablar sobre la trama del libro, porque no quiero adelantársela a nadie, sino sobre lo que más me enganchó al libro en sí: ser un adolescente y no saber quién sos ni qué esperás hacer con tu vida. Amistad, amor, drogas, la escuela, inseguridad, la búsqueda de una identidad, etc. Si, todos estos son los típicos clichés a los que puede enfrentarse cualquier persona durante su adolescencia, pero la forma en la que son mostrados en el libro es atípica y distinta a cualquier otro libro o película que conozco que hable del tema. No voy a decir más que eso.

Ah, y que lo lean. 

(y escuchen las canciones que van nombrando a lo largo del libro, y déjense transportar más todavía a la tan adorada década de los 90's)

3.6.12

p e r d i d a

Ninguna de las piezas que forman el rompecabezas de este año encaja con las mías.
Será que yo no tengo que encajar en este año?
No paro de quedar a medio camino de todos los lugares a donde quiero dirigirme.
No encuentro montañas para escalar y superar, a mi alrededor solo crecen paredes gigantes de piedra que no puedo cruzar.
Y yo sólo quiero llegar al final, como lo hacía siempre.
Pero no encuentro de dónde más aferrarme para seguir sosteniéndome, y comienzo a perder el equilibrio.
Caeré o podré encontrar de nuevo mi camino?

Quizás me haga bien un descanso, reflexionar un poco las cosas, y ver qué cambios tengo que hacer en mi vida, porque claramente algo ya no está dándome los resultados que debería...

1.6.12

Shit Happens.

God, it's unbearable the amount of pain you can feel when something you wanted so badly is taken away from you.

23.5.12

Muy metida en esa cosa que llaman "vida".










Bueno, dejé medio olvidado a mi pobre blog...
Pero ya prometo volver, en serio.
Estuve ocupada 

empezando mi segundo año en la Universidad,
reencontrándome con amistades que habían quedado congeladas en el tiempo
y afianzando otras nuevas que surgieron hace poco,
leyendo (ya voy a hablar sobre cada libro),
escuchando música nueva
música que siempre había querido escuchar
y mi música de siempre,
editando fotos del viaje,
obsesionándome cada vez más con Pinterest,
viendo capítulos que me faltaban ver de mis series favoritas,
descubriendo nuevas series,
pensando,
cantando,
sintiendo,

v i v i e n d o .

13.5.12

Make things happen.











Yo creo fervientemente en esa teoría de que si uno canaliza todas sus energías positivas en algo que quiere, ese "algo" eventualmente termina sucediendo (y lo he comprobado en varias ocasiones), pero me parece que últimamente tengo mi antena mal ubicada, porque las energías se están disparando a cualquier dirección menos a la que necesito que se dirijan.



Hay algún service al que pueda llamar por ahí que me reacomode el sistema?

6.5.12

New York City.










Soñar durante tanto tiempo con vivir algo.
Imaginarte cómo se sentirá cuando pase.
Crear situaciones en tu mente.
Creerlas para apurar el tiempo y llegar ahí de una vez por todas.

Y entonces por fin vivirlo.
En carne propia.
Y que te recorra una electricidad desde los pies a la cabeza.
Y lo estás viviendo.
Eso que tanto querías.
Y no entendés que todo está pasando realmente.

Y que es todavía mejor a como te lo habías imaginado.

9.4.12

a l i v i o

Qué lindo que es llegar a ese punto en que podés ver a esa persona que antes lo era todo, pero todo para vos feliz con otra persona y poder sentirte bien por ellos. O cuando te acordás de algo que tiene que ver con él y ahí te das cuenta de que ya no pensás más en él, que por fin te lo lograste quitar de la cabeza. Es ahí cuando la última cicatriz que le quedaba a tu corazón se sana, y estás en serio lista para empezar de nuevo. E intentar de ver si esta vez si conseguís el final feliz que tanto venís buscando.
Al final era verdad eso que se dice de que   el tiempo cura.

7.4.12

Don't get attached.

Nada. Esos momentos a las altas horas de la madrugada que estás sensible y ves algo que no tenías por qué ver, y catapulta automáticamente todos tus sentimientos a la mierda.
Tengo que acordarme de no ver videos ni escuchar la música de The Last Five Years cuando me siento así. Las cosas nunca suelen terminar muy bien qué digamos. A menos de que maldecir al género masculino en su totalidad esté bien. 

Y bueno, ninguno me demuestra lo contrario, así que jódanse.

Por cierto, para los que se están preguntando qué carajo es The Last Five Years, aquí les dejo la canción con la que abre el show. Disfruten.

30.3.12

Obscure Questions.

  • 1: What eye color do you find sexiest? Deep blue colored eyes.
  • 2: White, milk, or dark chocolate mocha? Dark.
  • 3: If you could get a Sharpie tattoo on your back, what would it be? Hakuna Matata.
  • 4: Did you grow up in a small or big town? Did you like it? I grew up in the suburbs of a big town. Yeah, I still like it.
  • 5: Your favorite adult as a child? (and not your parents, if they were your favorite) My godmother.
  • 6: What kind of smoothie sounds really good right now? A "raspberry, passion fruit and peach" kind of smoothie.
  • 7: Most embarrassing moment from your elementary school years? God, no. I really can't talk about it.
  • 8: Most embarrassing moment from your middle school years? When I got caught after pulling a prank. That sucked.
  • 9: Most embarrassing moment from your high school years? Right now I can't remember one, really!
  • 10: Pirates or ninjas? Why? Ninjas. Because they're smooth as a motherfucker.
  • 11: Have you ever climbed a tree more than twenty feet off the ground? Nope.
  • 12: Did you like swinging as a child? Do you still get excited when you see a swing set? Yes! In fact, I had a swing at my grandparent's house, so I would use it almost everyday, I loved it.
  • 13: If you could have any pet in the world, illegal or not, what would you get? A beagle puppy. Or a black cat.
  • 14: What's your most favorite part of your body? My lips.
  • 15: What's your most favorite part of your personality? That I'm not afraid of being funny.
  • 16: Madonna or Lady Gaga? Neither? Both? Who cares? Both.
  • 17: Have you ever watched the Superbowl all the way through? No, only the half-time show.
  • 18: Have you ever watched any major sporting event drunk? No, although I've watched one hungover one time.
  • 19: What's the most delicious food you've ever eaten in your life? Umph... now that's a tough one. I love food so much. Can I just say my favorite food is sushi and leave it there?
  • 20: Margarine or butter? Which did you grow up with? Neither.
  • 21: Whole, skim, 1%, or 2% milk? (Did you know they make 1 1/2% milk?) Skim.
  • 22: Which continents have you been on? Only one.
  • 23: Do you get motion sickness? Any horror stories? Yes, I get motion sickness all the time.
  • 24: Backpacks or satchels? It depends, I like both.
  • 25: Would you wear a rainbow jacket? A neon yellow sweater? Checkered pants? I don't think so.
  • 26: What was your favorite cartoon growing up? Peanuts! (Snoopy)
  • 27: If you had to have a cow or a pig, which would you take? Why? I'd be a pig, but only if I get to be a tea cup pig!
  • 28: If you had to look at one city skyline for the rest of your life, which would it be? Paris.
  • 29: Longest plane ride you've ever been on? I've never been on a plane.
  • 30: The latest you've ever slept? Last night I went to sleep at 6am. right after I'd finished reading "Catching Fire".
  • 31: Would you buy a sweater covered in kitten pictures? Would you wear it if someone gave it you for free? It depends, I'd have to see it first... but I may.
  • 32: Do you pick at scabs? Yes, I can't help it.
  • 33: Favorite kind of bean? Kidney? Black? Pinto? Da fuck?
  • 34: How far can you throw a baseball? I don't think it'd go too far.
  • 35: If you had to move to another country, where would you move? USA or England.
  • 36: Have you ever eaten Ethiopian food? Vietnamese? Korean? Nepalese? How was it? No, never tried any of those kinds of food.
  • 37: Small, liberal arts school or public university? Why? I attend a liberal arts school which also happens to be a public university...
  • 38: A relationship with love or one with sex? You can't have both?! I'd have to chose the first one, but only if making out, hugs and cuddling are on the table too.
  • 39: Do you eat enough vegetables? Yes, I do.
  • 40: Do you like horror movies? How about thrillers? I love horror movies. Not much of a thriller fan.
  • 41: Would you scratch a crotch itch in public? If it's unbearable, I try to.
  • 42: Do you swear in front of your parents? Not as much as I normally do, but yes.
  • 43: Coolest thing you've ever been for Halloween?
  • 44: If you could change your natural hair color, would you? To what? 
  • 45: Do you want to get married? Have kids? I think so.
  • 46: Do you use a reusable water bottle? If not, you should. I do.
  • 47: City or nature person? More of a city person.
  • 48: Have you ever used something other than "makeup" as makeup? (Like paint? Markers?) I don't think so.
  • 49: Can you walk well in high heels? Even if you're a guy? I'm a girl, and yes, I can.
  • 50: Post 5 awesome things about yourself. BRAG AWAY!
    a. I'm the funny girl (in the bizarre, crazy, nerdy, dirty minded, stupid yet at the same time witty kind of funny)
    b. I know almost every song lyric ever written. Okay, not that much, but pretty much.
    c. Okay, I'm bragging, and fuck off anyone who has a problem with this: I love singing, and I'm incredibly good at it. There, I said it.
    d. I can imitate many cartoon voices, specially from Disney movies, because I know the dialogues from almost all movies (yeah, I know, I've got a bit of a problem)
    e. I happen to love who I am (that counts as awesome too, google it).