Si yo fuera...

Si yo fuera un mes, sería: noviembre.

Si yo fuera un día, sería: miércoles.

Si yo fuera un momento, sería: eterno.

Si yo fuera un planeta, sería: plutón.

Si yo fuera un animal, sería: un tigre.
Si yo fuera una dirección, sería: contraria.

Si yo fuera una textura, sería: sedosa.

Si yo fuera una pieza de decoración, sería: vintage.

Si yo fuera un pecado, sería: la gula.

Si yo fuera un líquido, sería: agua.

Si yo fuera un árbol, sería: un cerezo.
Si yo fuera una nota musical, sería: sol.

Si yo fuera una flor, sería: una magnolia.

Si yo fuera un ave, sería: un ave fénix.
Si yo fuera un estado del tiempo, sería: lluvioso y fresco.

Si yo fuera una estación, sería: primavera.
Si yo fuera un sabor, sería: agridulce.

Si yo fuera un instrumento musical, sería: un violín.

Si yo fuera una criatura mitológica, sería: un hada.

Si yo fuera un color, sería: púrpura.

Si yo fuera una palabra, sería: magia.
Si yo fuera una esencia, sería: frutal.
Si yo fuera un número, sería: el tres.

I was bored so I did this.

o1. tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
He's the sweetest person there is in my life right now. He's a true gentleman, cute, and above all that he makes me laugh and smile nonstop. And I love the fact that he's not the kind of guy girls normally have a crush on.
o2. what on your body is hurting or bothering you?
My back. I need a massage ASAP.
o3. what was your last thought before going to bed last night?
"I wonder how he's doing back home..."
o4. what are you listening to?
Butterflies & Hurricanes (Muse)
o5. what's something you're not looking forward to?
I don't know.
o6. where do you think your best friend is right now?
Sleeping in her bed for sure.
o7. have you kissed anybody in the last five days?
Nope.
o8. sex on the first date?
I'd rather not.
o9. kiss on the first date?
Yes.
1o. is there one person you want to be with right now?
Of course there is.
11. are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
Yes, I seriously am.
12. is there something you would like to say to someone?
"I really, really like you. Please say you really, really like me back".
13. what are three things you did today?
Stayed in bed. Went to my Musical Theater Class (and did nothing, that was a blast). Blogged and tweeted.
14. would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
Have them over.
15. what is your favorite kind of gum?
Mint flavored.
16. are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/girlfriends?
No. (I mean, I've never had an official ex, so...)
17. what is on your wrists right now?
Nothing.
18. ever liked someone you thought you didn't stand a chance with?
Yes.
19. does anyone have strong feelings for you?
I hope so!
2o. are you slowly drifting away from someone?
I guess so, though I constantly get that feeling about a different person.
21. have you ever wasted your time on someone?
Countless times.
22. can you do the alphabet in sign language?
No.
23. how have you felt today?
Gray. Sad. Tired. 
24. you receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
Books and CD's.
25. what is wrong with you right now?
I feel lonely.
26. is there anyone you're really disappointed in?
Yes.
27. would you rather have Starbucks or Jamba Juice right now?
A hot Starbucks.
28. why aren't you in "love" with your last ex anymore?
(not an official ex, just for the record) Because he's an idiot.
29. how late did you stay up last night and why?
I think I stayed up until 3am.
3o. when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
A few hours ago.
31. what were you doing an hour ago?
Blogging.
32. what are you looking forward to in the next month?
I'm looking forward to starting my college's next semester.
33. are you wearing jeans right now?
Yes.
34. are you a patient person?
Sometimes, but not really.
35. do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
Yes.
36. favorite color?
Blue.
37. did you have a dream last night?
Yes, I had more than one, in fact.
38. are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
I said I was wearing jeans!
39. if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?
Him, obviously.
4o. do you love anyone who is not related to you?
Yes.
41. if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
YES.
42. do you like meeting new people?
Yes.
43. are you afraid of falling in love?
No, although it sucks to get hurt.
44. ever liked someone older than you?
Yes.
45. has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
Yes.
46. have you ever felt like you weren't good enough?
Countless times.

Obscure Questions.

• 1: What eye color do you find sexiest? Deep blue colored eyes.
• 2: White, milk, or dark chocolate mocha? Dark.
• 3: If you could get a Sharpie tattoo on your back, what would it be? Hakuna Matata.
• 4: Did you grow up in a small or big town? Did you like it? I grew up in the suburbs of a big town. Yeah, I still like it.
• 5: Your favorite adult as a child? (and not your parents, if they were your favorite) My godmother.
• 6: What kind of smoothie sounds really good right now? A "raspberry, passion fruit and peach" kind of smoothie.
• 7: Most embarrassing moment from your elementary school years? God, no. I really can't talk about it.
• 8: Most embarrassing moment from your middle school years? When I got caught after pulling a prank. That sucked.
• 9: Most embarrassing moment from your high school years? Right now I can't remember one, really!
• 10: Pirates or ninjas? Why? Ninjas. Because they're smooth as a motherfucker.
• 11: Have you ever climbed a tree more than twenty feet off the ground? Nope.
• 12: Did you like swinging as a child? Do you still get excited when you see a swing set? Yes! In fact, I had a swing at my grandparent's house, so I would use it almost everyday, I loved it.
• 13: If you could have any pet in the world, illegal or not, what would you get? A beagle puppy. Or a black cat.
• 14: What's your most favorite part of your body? My lips.
• 15: What's your most favorite part of your personality? That I'm not afraid of being funny.
• 16: Madonna or Lady Gaga? Neither? Both? Who cares? Both.
• 17: Have you ever watched the Superbowl all the way through? No, only the half-time show.
• 18: Have you ever watched any major sporting event drunk? No, although I've watched one hungover one time.
• 19: What's the most delicious food you've ever eaten in your life? Umph... now that's a tough one. I love food so much. Can I just say my favorite food is sushi and leave it there?
• 20: Margarine or butter? Which did you grow up with? Neither.
• 21: Whole, skim, 1%, or 2% milk? (Did you know they make 1 1/2% milk?) Skim.
• 22: Which continents have you been on? Only one.
• 23: Do you get motion sickness? Any horror stories? Yes, I get motion sickness all the time.
• 24: Backpacks or satchels? It depends, I like both.
• 25: Would you wear a rainbow jacket? A neon yellow sweater? Checkered pants? I don't think so.
• 26: What was your favorite cartoon growing up? Peanuts! (Snoopy)
• 27: If you had to have a cow or a pig, which would you take? Why? I'd be a pig, but only if I get to be a tea cup pig!
• 28: If you had to look at one city skyline for the rest of your life, which would it be? Paris.
• 29: Longest plane ride you've ever been on? I've never been on a plane.
• 30: The latest you've ever slept? Last night I went to sleep at 6am. right after I'd finished reading "Catching Fire".
• 31: Would you buy a sweater covered in kitten pictures? Would you wear it if someone gave it you for free? It depends, I'd have to see it first... but I may.
• 32: Do you pick at scabs? Yes, I can't help it.
• 33: Favorite kind of bean? Kidney? Black? Pinto? Da fuck?
• 34: How far can you throw a baseball? I don't think it'd go too far.
• 35: If you had to move to another country, where would you move? USA or England.
• 36: Have you ever eaten Ethiopian food? Vietnamese? Korean? Nepalese? How was it? No, never tried any of those kinds of food.
• 37: Small, liberal arts school or public university? Why? I attend a liberal arts school which also happens to be a public university...
• 38: A relationship with love or one with sex? You can't have both?! I'd have to chose the first one, but only if making out, hugs and cuddling are on the table too.
• 39: Do you eat enough vegetables? Yes, I do.
• 40: Do you like horror movies? How about thrillers? I love horror movies. Not much of a thriller fan.
• 41: Would you scratch a crotch itch in public? If it's unbearable, I try to.
• 42: Do you swear in front of your parents? Not as much as I normally do, but yes.
• 43: Coolest thing you've ever been for Halloween?
• 44: If you could change your natural hair color, would you? To what? 
• 45: Do you want to get married? Have kids? I think so.
• 46: Do you use a reusable water bottle? If not, you should. I do.
• 47: City or nature person? More of a city person.
• 48: Have you ever used something other than "makeup" as makeup? (Like paint? Markers?) I don't think so.
• 49: Can you walk well in high heels? Even if you're a guy? I'm a girl, and yes, I can.
• 50: Post 5 awesome things about yourself. BRAG AWAY!
  a. I'm the funny girl (in the bizarre, crazy, nerdy, dirty minded, stupid yet at the same time witty kind of funny)
  b. I know almost every song lyric ever written. Okay, not that much, but pretty much.
  c. Okay, I'm bragging, and fuck off anyone who has a problem with this: I love singing, and I'm incredibly good at it. There, I said it.
  d. I can imitate many cartoon voices, specially from Disney movies, because I know the dialogues from almost all movies (yeah, I know, I've got a bit of a problem)
  e. I happen to love who I am (that counts as awesome too, google it). 

50

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? Pipe.

2. Are you loud, outgoing or shy? Sometimes I really can be a little bit of all those three, but most of the times I'm just loud, like literally (and outgoing).

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? Two old friends.

4. Are you easy to get along with? I guess so... I mean, unless you're an attention-seeking whore, or a fake, or just annoying, I get along with pretty much everyone.

5. Have you ever given up on someone, but then gone back to him or her? Yes, plenty of times, and I've also been disappointed right after I'd given them a second chance.

6. If you were drunk, would the person you like take care of you? I don't "like" anyone right now, at least not in that way, so I wouldn't know.

7. Do you think you'll be in a relationship two months from now? I don't know, I don't think I'll be in a formal relationship, but I'm totally open to date someone.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? Like I said before, no one right now.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? No, not at all.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? My best friend.

11. What does your most recent text say? "Connect the cuts, connect the cuts."

12. How do you feel about abortion? I don't think it should be all-the-way legalized; I mean, it should only be used for special cases, like rapes, for example.

13. Do you like big crowds of people? No.

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? Yes.

15. What good thing happened this summer? I had plenty of time to figure out more stuff about me.

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Ew, no.

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? I don't know.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? I still talk to my first real crush, not to the first crush I've ever had.

19. Do you like bubble baths? I guess so.

20. Do you like your neighbors? I don't actually know them, so I don't really know what to answer.

21. What are your bad habits? I'm extremely lazy, I never do the dishes, I forget the things I have to do (this list could go on forever, so I'm going to stop it right here).

22. Where would you like to travel? New York City (and I'm going to do so in April!)

23. Do you have trust issues? Yes, my trust issue is that I have none, and that can be quite a problem sometimes.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Not actually having a daily routine.

25. What body part are you most uncomfortable with? My left boob is bigger that the right one, and it sucks.

26. What do you do when you wake up? Try to go back to sleep again.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? Definitely darker, a ghost is darker than me.

28. Who are you most comfortable around? My friends and family.

29. Have any of your ex's told you they regret breaking up? I don't have any ex's at all, so...

30. Do you ever want to get married? I think so.

31. Is your hair long enough for a ponytail? Hell yeah it is.

32. Which celebrities would you like having a threesome with? Darren Chris and Joseph Gordon-Levitt.

33. Spell your name with your chin. agbex

34. Do you play sports? Not right now, but I used to. I had to drop out because this year I'm starting dance lessons.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV, I couldn't live without music.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Yes.

37. What do you say during awkward silences? Nothing. That's why they're called "silences".

38. Do you think age matters in relationships? It depends.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? Complot is my favorite store.

40. What do you want to do after high school? I've already finished high school, and I'm studying Dramatic Arts.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? No, I don't believe that anymore.

42. If you're being extremely quiet, what does it mean? Either that I'm in a bad mood or that I really have nothing to say.

43. Do you smile at strangers? Sometimes.

44. Trip to outter space of bottom of the ocean? Both freak the hell out of me, but I think I'd rather have a trip to outter space.

45. Do you want a roomate? I already have one, my younger sister.

46. What are you paranoid about? Right now? I guess death paranoys me a bit.

47. What was the meanest thing someone ever said to you? I don't remember, I try to forget that kind of things.

48. The nicest thing? That I really am a good person.

49. Have you done something recently you hope no one find out about? Not really.

50. What language do you want to learn? I think french would be interesting.

15 to 21

day 15: a song that makes you cry and why
These two songs remind me of my mother. I hope that one day I'll sing them to her; she gave up to so many things so that my sister and me could have everything we needed. She wanted (and wants) us to have all the things she wanted for herself but could never get. I don't know why I get so mad at her and my dad sometimes. I really wish I could turn back in time so I could mend everything, and thank them both every day for everything they do for us two. Every time I listen to these songs, they never fail to make me cry.

CUIDÁNDOTE - BEBE

Despacito, cuando tú dormías,

ella te hablaba, te preguntaba, te protegía.

Ella prometió darte todo,

pero sólo pudo darte lo que tuvo.

Y para ti lo más hermoso

era amanecer junto a sus ojos

iluminando el mundo.

Pero los pájaros no pueden ser enjaulados,

porque ellos son del cielo, ellos son del aire;

y su amor es demasiado grande para cortarlo.

Volaste alrededor de la luna con ella,

le pediste que nunca se fuera.

Y ella respondió:

"mi amor siempre estará cuidándote".

Y la dejaste volar

y tus ojos lloraron hasta doler,

pero sólo tú sabías

que así tenía que ser,

que así tenía que ser.

THE BEST DAY - TAYLOR SWIFT 

I'm five years old, it's getting cold, I've got my big coat on. 

I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you.

I run and run past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides, 

look now, the sky is gold; 

I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home. 

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall, 

but I know you're not scared of anything at all. 

Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away, 

but I know I had the best day with you today. 

I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean. 

I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys. 

And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away, 

and we talk and window shop 'til I've forgotten all their names. 

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school, 

but I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you. 

Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay, 

but I know I had the best day with you today. 

I have an excellent father; 

his strength is making me stronger. 

God smiles on my little sister; 

inside and out she's better than I am. 

I grew up in a pretty house 

and I had space to run, 

and I had the best days with you. 

There is a video I found from back when I was three: 

You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me. 

It's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs; 

and daddy's smart and you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world. 

Now I know why all the trees change in the fall; 

I know you were on my side even when I was wrong. 

And I love you for giving me your eyes,
for staying back and watch me shine.
And I didn't know if you knew,
so I'm taking this chance to say 

that I had the best day with you today.

day 16: someone you trust
My family and my closest friends, those are the people in whom I trust completely and without any doubt.

day 17: your idol and why you look up to them

I don't have an "idol"; I mean, I look up to many people, but I don't think one should concentrate in only one role model, because then you would end up acting like them, and not like yourself. So I can't pick just one of the people I look up to, but I guess that it would be someone who fights for his/her dreams and for achieving what he/she wants. Someone who never sells his/her own identity to the sistem. I like that in people, and that's what I try to do with myself.

day 18: why you made your blog, why you still have it

The idea of running a blog has been haunting me for years. In fact, I had opened a few blogs in the past but I never actually used them. Then finally, in September of 2009 I decided to create one, because I had been through so much shit during that time that I knew the only thing that was going to take the pain away was to write about it. And it did. As soon as I started writing, all that bad energy that had been taking over my body and soul was finally leaving, and all the wounds were at last beginning to heal.
Thanks to that, I ended up falling in love with my blog; it gave me a place for me to express every thought that crossed my mind. Now I never hold a grudge, because I can put it into words and leave it here, not inside of me. 

day 19: your thoughts on your family

I think my family is awesome. Of course we have our ups and downs, but overall, I would never change them. They helped me get where I am today, and I know they'll never leave me alone (no matter how many times I thought they had to). I'm proud of each and every thing I learned from them, they're everything to me. 

day 20: what you think makes someone beautiful
This may sound absolutely corny, but I really think that someone is beautiful when they actually believe they are beautiful (but not in a narcissistic way), and when they're beautiful from the inside. When you know you're beautiful, other people start to realize it too.

day 21: everything you wish for in a significant other

I just wish that he will make me the happiest girl on Earth. The first time I fell in love, he had almost nothing to do with how I wanted my ideal boyfriend to be, but still I loved him with everything I had. As long as I'm happy with him and he's happy with me, I'll be fine.