God! I wish that, for once, everything would fall right into place, things would turn out the way they should. I just wish I knew what's about to happen, waiting fucking sucks. I hate the fact that I'm always the one who has to wait for an answer, never being sure of what that answer might be. Yes or no. There's such a huge gap between them. But maybe this time, yes, maybe this time, if I keep myself positive and stay confident... you know what I'm saying? I mean, they say that if you really want something with all your heart, eventually it will happen. Well, I've worked my ass off to make this possible, you promised me we'd see each other soon. And either way, these last few days turned out totally different as I had imagined, and guess what? I still have not seen him yet. Days turned into weeks, do we have to wait again until weeks turn into months to see each other? I don't know, yesterday I was so sick of everything that I just felt like crying all the time.